THE QUEER PILIPINX DIASPORA
An artist prepares for launch
Do you ever just find it arduous to actually get up and start your day? So, you sit on your bed. You toss and turn. Go in and out of sleep. Then you think, “Am I really this tired? Or am I just lazy? Is this depression and anxiety swallowing me whole?”
But you have to get up, eventually. So you do, and somewhere in you somehow you find your courage, you find your fire.
("manggigil" | Dec 2017)
Whether it’s real or not—automatic defense or intrinsic—you show the world what you are capable of.
("Wednesday" | June 2018)
Then you go home. Still full of fire you realize, “I don’t have to play alone.”
You’re thankful you have your kasamas. They make dying in this living playground worth every bit of it.
It’s great to be queer.
("Robes" | Dec 2017)
This day in particular, though, is a little harder than usual. You know it’s great to be queer and genderfluid. And be a person of color.
And an immigrant.
And first generation…everything.
And poor, even.
And much m o r e .
Because you get to see angles that others don’t.
But because they don’t see it, it’s that much harder for you.
Today, in particular.
(Caption: "Because in order to live, sometimes you gotta let yourself die a little. Cheers to all the moments we died a little in 2017, and cheers to many more." | Dec 2017)
But you keep going as heavy as it may be. Because you believe in yourself, and there are others who believe in you too. Your alaala tells you that there had been plenty of others who believed in you since the beginning.
As heavy as it may be…you smile a little. You know you’ll go places because you’ve always broken down the barriers that keep you from going.
So you keep going, and going, and going. You work to keep these barriers down for others like you—because they believe in you, they always have.
("flight" | Dec 2019)
When your babaylan ancestors look at you, they too, smile a little because of the ways you tell your truth.
("Babala/Babaylan" | Nov 2019)